Updates, confessions and happy endings…


I have so much to talk about in this blog post. You’d think I should be doing this every day or something. Well, that’s how it started out, but as we all know too well, LIFE just gets in the way and takes us from things we SHOULD be doing and distracts us to other, more useless things. However, I have not strayed, I have stayed my course and I’m feeling great about things!

To start, I want to update you on my progress. My hubby and I started playing tennis last week. We suck at it, but that’s good. I truly feel we get more of a workout because we are running around chasing after each other’s balls (that doesn’t sound right) instead of just standing in one general area volleying the ball back and forth. It has been great exercise and a welcome addition to my regime. This is something I can definitely keep up. Our only fight is the hot weather, but we have committed to at least 3 days a week to play for at least 45 minutes at a time. It’s a great workout, superior calorie burn and all around just fun!

Not to get too serious, because that’s just not me, but I have a confession (well, likely several, but only one I’m bringing up now). I have not been the greatest mother when it comes to the health of my daughters. I have 2 girls, ages 12 and 10. My oldest has type 2 diabetes as well, was just diagnosed last year at age 11. I hate this for her. I hate it. I can’t stress that enough. She is relatively good about doing what she is supposed to do, but for crying out loud, she’s 12 and she likes to eat. She is her mother’s daughter. She is overweight. Both of my daughters are overweight. According to the kids BMI charts, in fact, they are both… ugh, I despise this word… obese. There, I said it. Both of my daughters are obese. This makes me want to cry. And I do.

But, here’s the thing. When I say I haven’t been the greatest mother, what I mean by that is I haven’t been able to SHOW my kids, by example, the healthy things they should be doing and eating for a good part of their formative years. I have been lazy. I have been careless. I have not given them the attention, nor paid attention to all of the things I should have been paying attention to. What are they eating? How much are they eating? Are they getting enough activity? You know, it’s really difficult to instill that in your kids when all you want to do is lay around and do nothing but eat and watch TV. I have had the mindset that was instilled in me when I was young… their age, in fact, when I was crying to one of my parents about being so fat and overweight and was told, “Oh honey, don’t worry, it’s just baby fat. It will go away”. Well guess what? It DOESN’T JUST GO AWAY! Especially with this gene pool.

I have never forgotten those words, the way they were spoken to me, or the way I was laying face down in my bed, my pillow soaked with tears, thinking I was never going to be skinny like all my friends in school. As an adult, I can say, “What’s so great about being “skinny” anyway? Isn’t it just enough to be healthy?” YES, in fact, it is. I also know that kids are mean. I do not want my children to endure the name calling, the bullying, the relentless teasing that I had to endure all through elementary, junior high and high school. I want more for them. I want better for them, and I will give them better by showing them the right things to do. I will not put my kids on a diet, per se, but I am in control of this house and I can limit what garbage comes into it.

I am getting there. My children will get there, because after 12 years, I have finally awakened and can see that my neglectful behavior has done them no good at all. My oldest daughter has had some education on healthy eating, portion control and exercise, albeit great information, this came as a result of her diabetes diagnosis. We all tried to change everything to help her when she was first diagnosed and for awhile it worked, but guess who got lazy? Yep! I did. She did. We all did. She knows what she has to do and she’s getting better at it. She has a height advantage (5’5″), so her weight doesn’t show as much as it would on a shorter person… my youngest, for example. She is 10 years old and just at 5′ tall. She hasn’t hit that growth spurt yet, and believe it or not, for awhile there, I honestly had myself convinced that once she grew a few more inches, her weight would even out. Well, I’m not waiting for that. And I am proud to say, THE POINT I’VE BEEN WORKING UP TO THIS ENTIRE CONFESSION…, she has lost 13 pounds since May!!!¬†I am SO very proud of both of my girls. More than you could ever imagine. They continue to amaze me every day, and even in spite of my bad behaviors, I’m so pleased that maybe some of the things I’ve tried to teach them, though I haven’t been the best at leading by example, some of those things just might be sinking in. ūüôā

So on to happy endings. Yes, my daughter’s weight loss is a HUGE one. Additionally, I went for my diabetes check-up today and my A1c went from 7.1% in March to 6.1%!!! I am so happy I could just kick diabetes in the nuts!!

I know that scale victories are not everything. Matter of fact, they’re only ONE thing. I’m working on changing that mindset, and being able to accept all of the changes I’m making, and that my family is making. Small changes over time add up to huge life changes. I am learning to accept me for who I am. I can say that I do, and you can bet for certain that I KNOW who I am, I just don’t yet know what all I am capable of. But, I’m gonna stick around to find out.


We meet again…


I notice, it’s been awhile since I blogged. Hmm. Sometimes I get so busy doing other things that I forget about these accountability factors I’ve put in place for myself. It’s been 22 days, actually.

BUT, don’t think for one second that I’ve given up or slowed down. Nope.

I haven’t been presented with any new challenges lately, so I’m a bit bummed about that. I was really hoping that getting the word out and spreading the news that, “Hey, there’s a chubby girl that wants me to challenge her in some way to lose weight” would really get people going. I guess not so much.

Anyway, to update you, my weight loss has stalled a bit (see, the plateau/routine/exercise rut thing), but this week, I took up my tennis racket (actually a new one) for the first time in 30 years and started playing with my husband. Yes, we suck at it… BUT, we have fun and it’s FANTASTIC cardio!

I’ve also started tracking my food and fitness on sparkpeople.com. I’ve been on and off that site since 2007. I’m hoping the accountability to tracking and support I can get from the groups there will keep me going on my journey to a smaller, healthier me.

Tuesday, Tuesday…


Tuesday. Probably my least favorite day of the week. Why? Not really sure. Seems that a lot of bad things that have happened in my life seem to have happened on a Tuesday. But, it’s also too darn close to Monday.

Today was an especially hard Tuesday because it was my first day back to work after being off for almost 10 days. I opened myself up on Facebook last night to new challenges. I don’t want my workout routine to become routine and therefore, plateau.

My friend, R, challenged me to ride my recumbent bike for 30 minutes. This was the circuit. Ten minutes at 7 resistance, 5 minutes at 4, 10 minutes at 7 and 5 minute cool-off at 3. I have to tell you… I did it, but I was BEAT even before the first 10 minutes was done! I pushed through and completed the challenge.

This is what I need, folks. I need to be presented with challenges that go outside of the norm for me. Things I wouldn’t think to do on my own. This is what has worked and will continue to work for me.

I’ve posted this on Facebook, but as of last week, Week #5, I am down 12.6 pounds and 4-1/2 inches. I am keeping this up. I will see my goal one day and continue along on my journey because it won’t end at goal. That is where it all begins.

Heat… and other fun things


Wow, I just realized I haven’t blogged for six days! No worries, I haven’t fallen off my wagon, not at all. I’ve been so busy and have tried to cut my screen time, so I was updating my Facebook page and not blogging so much. I guess that can be good.

The past few days here in Indy have been HOT and BRUTAL. Very difficult to workout, but it’s no excuse. Activity must get done.

In case you don’t follow my FB page, to update you… This week’s weigh in was successful. I was down another 1.8 pounds, for a total of 10.6 in 4 weeks. ¬†Additionally, I lost 3 inches off my waist and 1-1/2 inches off my hips. All in all, very good! And I’m keeping it off!

This is going to be a tough week. On Thursday, we leave for our Chicago/Green Bay trip. YES, I WILL eat pizza in Chicago. NO, I will NOT go overboard. The toughest part of any journey such as this is finding that balance between not depriving yourself and not going crazy and over-indulging. Chicago is THE place for pizza, in my opinion. So, I will indulge. I have already told hubby that no matter how hungry we feel when it’s time for dinner, we will order a small pizza and share it. Slowly chewing and savoring every bite will help to ensure neither of us overdo it. I don’t plan on undoing 4 weeks worth of hard work in 3 days… and believe me, this body I occupy is perfectly capable of just that.

We will be doing lots of walking while in the City overnight, and then at our hotel in Green Bay, there is a fitness center, so I know I plan on utilizing that as well. There will be a lot of time spent in the car those three days, but we plan to have fun, to live it up, and to keep on task. We’re both doing this and there’s no point in blowing it all.

For today, it is race day in Indy. I live in Speedway (Racing Capital of the World). I’m rather stuck in the house most of the day, unless I go anywhere on foot. After a light breakfast this morning, I went out and got my walk in, sweating like crazy, yet, trying to get it out of the way before the raging heat of the sun bears down. Came home, showered, made a healthy pasta salad for dinner to go with our steaks, salad and baked potatoes we will have later. Water has been crucial and plentiful today. It will likely interrupt my nap time. Nap??

Now, I am going to nap. I’m hot and it feels pretty damn good in this room with 2 fans blowing on me. Nap time while hubs works, then up to cook out and stand in front of a hot grill later. But that’s later.

Thanks for sticking with me. I cannot express how much your positive thougths, comments and encouragement keep me going. I’m accountable to you all, but first, to MYSELF!



Well, had great intentions today. ¬†Came home after my daughter’s 6th grade graduation and decided it was time to go for a walk. I set out the door, turned the corner and BOOM! Fell straight to the ground. Tripped over I-don’t-know-what! Probably nothing, I’m clumsy like that.

This is going to be a short post because I’m in pain. I have road rash down the side of my leg and on my right arm and palms. I came home and rode the bike for 10 minutes. That was all I could stand. As time has gone by, the pain has gotten worse. Now feeling hurt in my hips, knee and almost every muscle in my body. Hey, I did something. Not much, but something. That is key!

Activity Day!!!


Wow, I have to say, when I woke up this morning, I had no idea I would be doing so much activity! ¬†I had all intentions of doing something, but hadn’t quite decided just what that would be.

Took the kids to Eagle Creek Park and did the fitness loop. We were not physically able to do all of the exercises on the trail, but we TRIED each and every one of them. Jogged when we were to jog between stations.

After that, came home and went with my youngest daughter over to the field to kick around the soccer ball.  Some other neighborhood kids joined us and we almost had a full on soccer game going for awhile. I lasted about 20-25 minutes, running up and down the field, kicking the ball, blocking, etc., and my baby girl wore me out.

Dinner tonight was sweet and sour turkey meatballs with corn on the cob, green beans and rolls.  Once we finished, we decided to go back to Eagle Creek, this time with hubby, and do the fitness loop again. This time, we just walked it, but it was another activity. Another walk, more movement.

I feel good, but completely exhausted tonight. I know I will sleep well! Vacation is coming up in less than 2 weeks and I’d like to be down a total of 15 pounds before we go. Somewhat lofty of a goal, since I’d have to lose 3 pounds each of the next 2 weeks, but if I don’t make that, it’s ok, I’m still losing. I just want to be able to enjoy myself and do things, and today showed me that, even with the extra weight I’m carrying around now, I CAN still be active with the kids and I don’t always have to walk. Sometimes, I can just play!

So it’s Wednesday


Middle of the week, now two days until weigh in.  Things are going relatively well, aside of the wonderful upper respiratory infection that decided to take up residence in my body.

I wasn’t able to work out yesterday, but I did manage to get in a little bit of activity today. It was not easy, but nothing good ever is, right? At least that’s what they say.

So, Wednesday, all in all, you were a decent day. I’m hoping to feel much better tomorrow so I can get some work done at work and get in a decent round of physical activity before Friday mornings weigh in.

I’ll be in touch! Keep it healthy!